头痛， 心痛。。。

你为什么这样？ 爱你很难过。。。
我不知道你在想什么。。。
你恨我吗？ 你应改告诉我， 因为我不知道我做错的。
我觉得很难过， 因为你觉得很难过。
你不高兴不快乐，我也不高兴不快乐。
我要知道。。。 但是我决定给你自由。。。
我在等你。。。
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五月天--溫柔

走在風中 今天陽光 突然好溫柔
天的溫柔 地的溫柔 像你抱著我
然後發現 你的改變 孤單的今後
如果冷 該怎麼渡過

天邊風光 身邊的我 都不在你眼中
你的眼中 藏著什麼 我從來都不懂
沒有關係 你的世界 就讓你擁有
不打擾 是我的溫柔

不知道 不明瞭 不想要 為什麼 我的心
明明是想靠近 卻孤單到黎明
不知道 不明瞭 不想要 為什麼 我的心
那愛情的綺麗 總是在孤單裡
再把我的最好的愛給你

不知不覺 不情不願 又到巷子口
我沒有哭 也沒有笑 因為這是夢
沒有預兆 沒有理由 你真的都說過
如果有 就讓你自由
這是我的溫柔

Sitting Waiting Wishing...

once again, i have found a song that fits my situation. i love how every word in the lyrics fits! its so uncanny...



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SITTING WAITING WISHING - Jack Johnson

Now I was sitting waiting wishing
That you believed in superstitions
Then maybe you'd see the signs
But Lord knows that this world is cruel
And I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning loving somebody don't make them love you

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing your fool?

I sing ya songs I dance a dance
I gave ya friends all a chance
Putting up with them wasn't worth never having you
And maybe you been through this before
But its my first time
So please ignore
The next few lines cause they're directed at you

I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool
I keep playing your part
But its not my scene
Wont this plot not twist?
I've had enough mystery.
Keep building me up, then shooting me down
Well im already down
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting

Well if I was in your position
Id put down all my ammunition
I'd wondered why'd it taken me so long
But Lord knows that I'm not you
And If I was I wouldn't be so cruel
Cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing your fool?
No I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool, foool

i miss my gachapin... :(

i miss my gachapin... i wonder if it's mutual...

who is the pretender

last night was a breakthrough. can't say anything more.

i found this online and i think they're so true. especially for me.

When a girl bumps into your arm while walking she wants you to hold her hand. (triple check)
When she wants a hug she will just stand there. (double check)
When u break a girls heart, she still feels it when u run into each other 3 years later. (check)
When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind. (double check)
When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply. (double check)
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around. (check)
When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds, she is not at all fine. (check)
When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are so wonderful. (triple check)
When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever. (hmmm)
When a girl says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future. (dont know)
When a girl says, "I miss you," no one in this world can miss you more than that. (double check)

mind games... they suck!

he's playing mind games on me. its so frustrating! but i have decided not to press on. sooner or later i would know the answer. i really dont know now... some people think its obvious but, as my other friend commented, its hard to see whats happening when youre the lead role. true true...

Tell me tell me ttttttell me 나를 사랑한다고 날 기다려왔다고

back story update: i have chosen. and things are going well. but is there really something there?

if i deciphered right, i think we made a breakthrough last night. still not so sure though. i hope everything clears up soon. i hate mind games.

what to do?

be careful what you wish for. too many choices can cause confusion and headache.